My Journey of Self Discovery

I am...

2011-03-29T21:05:00.000-07:00

I am healthy
I am a success
I am an athlete
I am not alone
I am gladdened
I am encouraged
I am wanted and loved
I am able to cope with life
I am young in mind and spirit

I am not...

2011-03-29T17:01:00.000-07:00

I am not fat
I am not old
I am not lazy
I am not alone
I am not oppressed
I am not depressed
I an not unwanted or unloved
I am able to cope with love
I AM NOT A FAILURE AS A PERSON IN ANY WAY

I feel....

2011-03-29T13:01:00.000-07:00

I feel fat
I feel old
I feel lazy
I feel alone
I feel desperate
I feel oppressed
I feel depressed
I feel so sad and angry
I feel like a bad parent
I feel unwanted and unloved
I feel unable to cope with life
I feel like a failure as a person in every way

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2011-02-26T08:11:00.001-08:00

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2011-02-21T11:09:00.000-08:00

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2011-02-09T12:16:00.001-08:00

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Blogging from work

2011-02-02T11:41:00.001-08:00

Is bad! Thank goodness for George, my iPhone!

My sweet boy

2011-01-27T21:59:00.001-08:00

My sweet boy, Sparky. I never knew really knew how awesome it was to own a dog, until I got him. He is a mix of my two friends' dogs. One neighbour had the mom, the other neighbour, the dad. 2 will still born, 2 girls. The 2 boys were just fine. Sparky was a surprise. We thought the 3rd pup was it, but lo and behold, there was my little baby. He's 2.5 years old now. I would be lost without him.

Blogging is work

2011-01-26T11:48:00.000-08:00

no one told me that.

It's hard to be creative and find something to write about when you are just too busy with life. I've always wanted to be a writer, I think I may have mentioned that before, but where is the time? Maybe if I need some kinda thing that will read my mind while I am sleeping and when I wake up, there would be a short story ready to go. I guess I better get inventing!

2011-01-20T13:25:00.000-08:00

2011 and Stress

2011-01-20T13:24:00.000-08:00

Well...first month of 2011 almost over. It's been a stressful year so far, mostly with work but also partly personal. I sure hope this isn't an indication of what the rest of the year will be like.

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2010-07-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Just plain cute!!

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Marsh Lake, Yukon

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My big girl!

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Run for Mom....May 2010...my first 5km.

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My doggie-do!

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My little cousin Lacey..:)

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How to Cheat Without Wrecking Your Diet

2010-04-29T09:18:00.000-07:00

How to Cheat Without Wrecking Your Diet

2010-04-29T08:36:00.000-07:00

Here is me...wearing some of the clothes my friend Kait in Alberty sent me..:)

It''s been an awesome week...

2010-04-24T13:06:00.000-07:00

all 3 workouts rocked
i got a box of clothes from my awesome friend Kait that will get me thru this stage in my journey..:)
i fit into a pair of jeans i have never worn this morning..and they FINALLY FIT!
i'm going for a hardcore bike ride with my kid in about 45 minutes..:)

oh i could go on and on...lol.

Life is good!

Fabulous!

2010-04-21T10:59:00.000-07:00

Yes..yes I am, thanks for asking!

Now here are some photos to prove it!

<-----This is me throwing some weight between my legs and then back up, while doing a squat...lol

---> this is me doing some pushup thingies..lol---->

<---- this is me after I was done! 3 circuits...killer!

<-----this is my super duper trainer, Shelly "the Killer"..lol

This was my reward...healthy tacos! I actaully only at 1 1/2 of them and left the rest for lunch today...but I think they are soggy now....BOO!

All in all...a GREAT day yesterday!

What a day!

2010-04-20T12:40:00.000-07:00

I know, it's only Tuesday...what's so great about that you say? Well...got a few hours...lol. I'll just list a few of the things that makes Tuesday so great!

1. I'm on there....woot woot!!

2. It's not Monday.

3. Tomorrow is payday.

4. I live in the beautiful city of Whitehorse YT! God's Country!

5. I have some awesome friends and family.

6. Winter is over (knock on w00d)

Well those are 6 reasons, but certainly not all....life is good right now..and DAMN I have so earned it!

So...let's keep this great momentum going....Life...HERE I COME!!!!

Success

2010-04-15T13:14:00.000-07:00

is all relative...right? I mean I measure my success my own way. For me, success is...not giving into those cravings and emotional eating patterns....stopping eating when I feel full...and making it to the gym AT LEAST 3 times a week. Those are only a few things I use to measure success....and I am rocking!!!

I applied to

today to have my blog included on their website. It would be cool..considering very few folks read this...lol!

TGIT!!!!

Still Going Strong

2010-04-01T16:16:00.001-07:00

it's been 3 weeks and I am still going strong and making amazing progress!

Woot woot!

Am I worth it?

2010-03-24T11:30:00.001-07:00

Of COURSE I am!

What I am referring to is....should I spend $1000 on 40 training sessions at the gym? My friend, who just certified as a trainer, is offering a 2-for-1 deal....she will match however many sessions I buy. So 10 session is $450, which would be 20 sessions. Right now, I have extra money, with getting my income tax, daycare money from my ex, and child tax benefit that I haven't gotten in a while due to them not having my correct address. I know I can put this money on my bills...but it seems like too good of a deal to pass up.

For $900 + GST, I could have 40 training sessions, and it's an opportunity that would be so hard to pass up, the cisrcumstances are so right for this, and my mindset is ready to work. I lost 4.5 pounds last week on my own, and have had 2 sessions with Shelly this week and one more booked for Friday. 40 session works out to be 13 weeks of training, at 3 sessions a week. Plus I get free training sessions included with my gym membership that I could use, to make it 14 weeks. I think I'm ready to get amongst it!

In 13 weeks from now, I will be so very very healthy and HOT!!!

Good for me!

2010-03-22T12:52:00.000-07:00

I dont know what changed..but last week was great. I stayed on plan all week, including the weekend. I lost 4.5 pounds and am back down to 210..only 2 more pounds to go the be back at the last lowest weight. I'm hoping to get there this week.

I did a workout 6 out of 7 days last week. Mostly cardio, but I did a few sessions of Yoga (3 to be exact) and plus I did lots of cleaning and that elbow grease counts as sweat!

I got my income tax return which takes a big weight off my shoulders in regards to bills that are due (and now paid up).

AND...drum roll please...I am going to buy a training package at the gym. For the price of 10 sessions, I will get 20 sessions....if that doesn't kicked me in the butt, I might as well quit! Wish me luck!

Also, my house looks amazing...yes there is still clutter...but it's decreasing and the house is nice and tidy and CLEAN! I think I'm getting the hang of this thing some folks refer to as "life".

I'm tooting my own horn, because if there is no-one else who can give you a boost, then you gotta count on yourself. And really, you can't rely on others for your self-esteem, you MUST rely on yourself. I'm trying really hard not to let extrenal forces that I can't control influence my peace of mind. I am the only one who will take care of me...so I'm gonna take care of me!

So...GOOD FOR ME!!

Onwards and upwards

2010-03-17T16:21:00.000-07:00

I refuse to call it starting over again...I'm moving forward every day with my health. Obstacles get in the way and as long as I dont let them block me permanantly, then it's progress..:)

So this is day 3 of tracking my food and I've been bang on everyday. I have even been active all 3 days and I'm down 1.5 pounds...woot!

Life is good..:)

life is tough

2010-02-16T10:09:00.000-08:00

Lots has happened since I last wrote here. My uncle died on January 30th. On Feb 1st, my daughter and I flew to Nfld. We arrived at 1am nfld time, drove 3 hours, slept 3 hours, got up and drove 2 hours then attended a beautiful memorial service. We spent the day visiting with family on my dad's side and drove 2 more hours to get back home. It was the hardest day I have experienced since Sophi spent 5 days in the hospital when she had a really bad seizure.

We were home for 5 days and then we had to make the trek back to the Yukon. This was much longer than when we went there. The flight back has several stops (I like to call it the Mail Run).
It took 12 hours once we got to the airport, to get to Vancouver. First we had to drive 3 hours to get to the airport. It was a long and horrible day, but I have great friends in Vancouver, and one of them came to pick us up at the airport at 11:30pm and got us back there by 10:20am to catch our 11:30 flight (which was late).

It was so good to get back. My huney was waiting for us when we got here. It was soo good to see him. It had been over a year since we have really spend any time apart from each other. I missed him. I missed my dog and cats. I missed my bed. It was good to get home and see the family, but it was also good to get back to the Yukon.

Wow, I guess I have 2 homes. Nlfd will ALWAYS be home. But the Yukon is home now too. My life is here...my kid, my job, my house, my pets, my honey..etc.

That's all for now folks. thanks for reading...lol

0 comments

2010-01-29T10:21:00.000-08:00

well it's not like I write on here for comments..but my vain self would like to see one....lol

Anyway...it's Friday and the temp is warm..:) The sun is shining more and more as spring continues to approach...thank goodness.

Tomorrow is a partial "pamper-me day". I am having a pedicure done. Luckily it's 50% off so I am only paying $35. It's a good thing because this salon isnt good enough to charge $70 for a spa pedicure. Last weekend, I had a manicure done and I wasnt that impressed with it. She didnt put a base coat on before she painted my nails, so they were stained when I took the nailpolish off. She also didnt do any top coats so the nail polish came off quite quickly. But with a pedicure, I'm not sdo concerned with the polish as I am with the skin. My feet need a good scrubbing with a pumice and I cant seem to manage it myself. My feet are too sensitive and I always stop...lol.

Have I mentioned George? I got George for my birthday. He's my Iphone. I love him and squeeze hm and call him George..:) I bought George a pink dress...he looks so pretty..:) I was never a big fan of Apple before now...but George has converted me..:) Now if only I could convert him.

Anywho, back to the grindstone...lol TTFN

writing

2010-01-28T20:14:00.000-08:00

the more i think about it, the more i want to do some creative writing...but how? I dont do good with self taught courses....i cant be my own teacher. I need guidence. But who has time to go to a class...lol.....if i have spare time, I "try" to get to the gym...ok well it's been a week, but I think I might go tomorrow.

wow it's hard to type fast with fake nails...they really are too long..arg. But hey, I did them myself and saved myself $70.00...:)

anyway..back to the dilemma. i wonder if there is a book called "creative writing for dummies"...I'm gonna google it...brb......yup....there is..but i cant seem to copy and paste the url. dangit. well anywho, I'll look it over and see what I think.

hey i got my hair cut tonight...it's nice and short. Easy and fast to take care of in the morning...I guess i would rather sleep in...lol

This isnt my hair but it's so pretty I decided to put it here....lol

well i have some chores to do....so i better get to them....nite nite all

just some random summer pics to remind me thast winter does not last forever

2010-01-28T12:43:00.000-08:00

I wish ...

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...that I was more of a creative writer. My problem is that I get bogged down with all the little details. I just cant write for the sake of writing. I've always wanted to write a romance novel but I dont have the foggiest idea of how to start. I remember that I loved writing in High School. I enjoyed learning the mechanics of writing and the proper formation of sentences. But that was 20+ years ago. I dont remember those rules anymore. Hell I'm lucky if I remember to use punctuation!

Blech!

Dec 22nd

2009-12-22T13:21:00.001-08:00

Wow..cant believe it's that time of year again...time has flown since we got home from Holland....phew. It was a good trip and I'd like to go back, but I will do things differently next time..:) LIKE A GPS!!! lol

I'm pretty much ready for xmas...at least I hope so!

Merry Christmas!

11:20pm, Nov 26th

2009-11-26T14:17:00.000-08:00

The Cup is over and we are relaxing at the apartment we are staying at. A few of our friends are here and we are just having a nice smokeout together. I'm tried so many strains of week that I forget which ones I have smoked. Now we have a few days to get some sight seeing done, just the to of us.

I have a deadly cold tho. Ug. But what can I do? I'm trying to smoke it out of me.

hello

2009-11-26T01:21:00.000-08:00

Nov 26, 2009 10am

Good Morning.

YBG (YukonBikerGuy aka my hubbins) and I are sitting here (in Amsterdam) with our friends Batiba and Hashbean. We are getting ready to smoke a cannon with oil on the paper. The pot is Amnesia and the oil is a mixture of oils. Tastey...:)

I woke up with a touch of a cold this morning. I'm not the only one with this cold. Oh well...just have to suffer thru it I guess. Have 4 more days yet before we head home. I miss my kid and my dog and my cats and my stuff and my bed and my hottub! I'm having fun but I cant wait to get home!!

Still Kinda steamed about the thing with the family member that I mentioned yesterday. Lost some sleep over it. But there is nothing I can do about it so I'm just going to live my life and hope for acceptance. I will not pretend to be someone I am not.

Posting From Amsterdam

2009-11-25T12:51:00.000-08:00

Wow..here I am in Amsterdakm....wow. Last night I went to a party called "The Legends of Hash"...the best hash makers in the world. Got to hit a 40 year old bong with some legendary people. Amazing..I will post more on this when I get home.

I'm really here to vent. I posted something on my facebook page about my vacation and got heck from a family member because said person is embassessed that all her friends can see my status. OMG...I'm 38....enough already.

Anyway, as a consequence, I think I am going to delete my facebook account or do down to a very limited account. Then I'm going to use this blog to keep in touch with people. It sure won't be as detailed or current as a facebook update would be.

Tami

Week 1 update

2009-10-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

2 lbs lost.

inches lost
chest - 1
waist - 1
hips - 1
thighs - 1 on each side!

WOOT WOOT!

I owe it all to www.fityummymummy.com and www.weightwatchers.ca

oh..and me..:) I did all my workouts, plus 2 extra..and my diet was great..:)

So far so good!

2009-10-02T08:43:00.000-07:00

This is what I posted on FB last night and of course when I tried to put it on here, my computer was too nuts!

Well it's been a great week...I've done all my workouts so far plus 2 extra cardio sessions, as well as extra ab training sessions. Diet had been BANG on and my clothes are a tad bit more comfy...I feel so great about myself, and it's been a long time coming. I just tried on some clothes that I havent worn since last winter, mostly work clothes, and I found a few I can wear again and they fit well. I remember when one of the pairs was too big on me, so that will be a good way to see my progress, when the day comes that those pants are again too big..:)

I really feel like it's finally finally FINALLY clicked for me. It doesn't feel like work anymore, it just feels like 2nd nature. Choosing the right foods is not an inner fight anymore. There is no fight at all. I know that eating too much in a sitting is bad, smaller portions and more often is really better anyway...because I love to eat and its like I'm eating all the time and it's not guilt producing anymore if I do have that piece of chocolate or cookie. Everything in moderation.

Right now, while getting past this plateau (I've been back and forth between 213.5 and 215 for about a month now or more...i've lost track) I have to be stricker...and honestly, I dont feel deprived at all.

So I'm tooting my own horn because I know all my friends out there love me and want me to do this for my health. Thanks to everyone for having my back..even if you never said so, I know it anyway.

AND then I was going to expand on this but the moment has passed....I will do so later. I have a bit of a headache but I am trying to take it easy so when lunch time rolls around, I feel well enough to hit the gym!

Rabble Rabble

2009-09-29T13:15:00.001-07:00

I've been taking pics of what I have been eating and wanted to post the pics on here last night, but lo and hehold, my stupid computer at home wouldnt let me upload them!

ARG!!!!

My personal 8 week Challenge

2009-09-27T21:15:00.000-07:00

So DH and I are going to Amsterdam in November...Nov 20th to 30th. That gives me 8 weeks, short a couple days.

So I have challenged myself!

Here are my goals:

1. Lose 10 pounds2.

Eat no take-out

3. Miss no workouts

I have my 8 weeks worth of workouts ready and planned (weeks 5-12 of www.fityummymummy.com).

I have the first 4 weeks written on my calender so I know what workout what day. I am using my whiteboard to record my wieght loss and measurements.

I don't have my menu completed like I would like but the evening is not over yet..:)

So any support at all would be greatly appreciated from all my friends both near and far! Wish me luck

Ok seriously....

2009-09-23T12:16:00.000-07:00

How's it going? I'm well. Managed to get back to the gym in 2 weeks this time, instead of 2 months. I'm happy with that. LAst night, after watching Biggest Loser, I got motivated to hit the gym, which I did..at 7pm..:) Here is the program I am doing right now.

http://www.fityummymummy.com/

It's a 15 minutes workout, 6 times a week. Short and sweet.

My friend Chantel is almost at her 90 pound mark...and I am soo soo soo proud of her. She keeps me going whenever I think "Fuck it, why bother?" I think of her and she keeps me going. She doesnt even have to say anything, she just has to exist..:) I love her so much and am very very very very proud of her!

I was reading in a magazine about writing memoirs so that your family has a written history of your life. I really want to start doing that. I want Sophi to have stories to tell her kid and grand-kids long after I am gone. I read that the trick is to not think of it like an autobiography, but rather as little snippets of your life, little moments in time that are special. I really want to do that, but like everything else, I am a perfectionist, and I think if I can't get it right, then why do it at all? But something is better than nothing, and I want my family to know who I was and what I contributed to the world.

So here is my first memoir..:)

This morning I was watching a youtube video of Buddy Wasisname and the Other Fellers "The Card". http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OnYPXZvCc0I It was about a couple who were using the bank machine for the first. Of course it's a funny video, but when they came to the part where they said "the key chummy", I just about peed my pants laughing so hard. I guess ya have to be a newfie to find it really funny....I was laughing so hard I was crying! Then when I came to work I was telling a fellow newfie about the video and he laughed almost as much when I was telling the story....newfies are too frikkin funny!

OK...I'm done now....ttfn!

Blogging

2009-09-23T12:15:00.000-07:00

Blog blog blog blog blog blog blog.

Blog!

A Good Week so-far

2009-08-05T21:46:00.000-07:00

I'm getting back into the swing of things woot...:)

Here's what I have dont for exercise.

August 1 - 30 minutes exercise bike
3- Black Street Strairs, 30 minutes exercise bike
4- once around the block on my old bike, bout 10 minutes
5 - Blacks Street Stairs, 3o minutes exersie bike, 10 minutes rowing..and then 40 minutes or so on my new mountain bike!

And I've been eating really healthy and I feel awesome!

Holiday and a healthy lifestyle

2009-07-31T11:03:00.001-07:00

Wow it's been a while since I blogged. I really need to find some balance in my life. I have so many things on the go and so little time to do them! Right now I am trying to finish off 2 quilts that I have been working on for years..and by years, I mean at least 3 years. See the problem is, I'm a prefectionist. If I start something and I don't think it's good enough, then I will put it down and not finish. I am finding this applies to many areas of my life, not just the crafts. Like implementing a healthy lifestyle. When I mess up, I usually say "f*ck it" and quit, well because if I don't get it right, then what's the point? But that's not the way to go. I know I just have to keep going and not worry about the mistakes and just keep plugging away.

So I've decided (once again) to give WW a go and really really try very hard to stay on-plan (OP) and when I eat something I shouldn't, I'm going to try really hard not to let it defeat me. The same goes for the gym and exercise. So if I miss a day due to "whatever", I have to remind myself that it's ok and just keep going. Gosh it's so hard NOT to beat myself up when I mess up...ug.

I was ready a blog today by someone who goes by a "Prior Fat Girl" and she is approaching her 2 year mark and 100 pounds lost. Gosh I want that to be me in 2 years from now. I need to lost abou 70 pounds but at my age, it will likely take 2 years to get there...but that's ok. That will give me another 40 years of being healthy to enjoy life, right? And of course I will be enjoying life all the while.....go me!!!!!

2009-06-05T09:07:00.001-07:00

My Numbers

2009-06-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

doen 2.5 pounds this week for a total loss of 11.5 pounds!

Thirsty Thursday and Winning

2009-05-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

I have discovered I am inherently lazy. I would much rather sit around at night watching tv or maybe sitting outside in the sun, reading a good book and sipping a cold beverage. But alas, that is how my ass got in the rounded shape that it is now, and no amount of sitting around and drinking cold beverages is going to make it smaller. So off to the gym I go, or walk the dog, or garden...something, anything to get the blood going. Tonight I have yoga and that always makes me sweat, so that will be my workout for today.

I stepped on the scale this morning and I was down 2.5 pounds. Hard to believe after only 4 days but I've been bang on with my points and have exercised every day so far this work. So the program does work if you work it. I still have a few pounds to go to get back to the 10 pounds I had lost in April. If I can continue to lose 10 pounds a month, I think I'll be more than happy with that. MORE THAN HAPPY! that means I might reach my goal by the end of the year....if...big IF...I dont fall off the wagon again, and knowing me..that will happen at some point.

But it's ok..because I ALWAYS GET BACK ON THE HORSE! This time I got back in about 6 weeks or so....there have been times in the past were it has taken me months and months to get my head screwed on straight but I'm like a timex watch, takes a lickin' and keeps in tickin.

I just wish I knew why I get derailed in the first place. Am I scared of succeeding? Am I scared of being slim and healthy and sexy? Am I just plain scared of life? If only I had a Magic 8 Ball that could tell me! Damnit!

Leg Day at the gym

2009-05-27T15:41:00.001-07:00

I love leg days...makes me feel so strong...not like arm days...my puny little arms cant push much weight but my legs sure can!

Starting over...or rather gaining momentum again

2009-05-27T09:52:00.000-07:00

Ya..I feel off the WW wagon....for a few months. Lost about 1/2 the progross I had made..but that's ok. I'm back again...and it's only failure if I completely give up. And I never do that!

Yoga is the new black!

2009-04-15T10:03:00.000-07:00

Wow I love yoga! It works up a great sweat, as much, if not more, than a weight workout!

That's all I have to say!

2009-04-09T15:24:00.001-07:00

Feeling Good

2009-03-31T15:52:00.001-07:00

about working out. planning on going to yoga tonight with a friend and my other yoga class starts on Thursday night. However, my throat is sore and I am stuffy so I sure hope I'm not getting the flu!

woohooo

2009-03-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

finally i got thru a weekend w/o seeing the scale go up! GO ME!!!

Must have been all the housework I did over the weekend...and eating well...oh and all the work I put in last week! 4 workouts at the gym 2 yoga sessions and 3, 30 minute dog walking sessions! Oh and nookie..:)

Today's weigh in

2009-03-27T12:25:00.000-07:00

down one more pound for a total of 6 pounds lost so far.

But i was sooooo sick last night and I lost my supper down the toilet and while I was puking I couldnt help but think, "wow I hope this makes the scale go down" and "why do people do this on purpose?" OMG..I could never be bulemic. My throat hurts from the bile I was puking at the end....makes be heave just thinking about it...blech.

But on the up side, it's FRIDAY!

ug

2009-03-26T12:46:00.001-07:00

not feeling very energetic this morning....ug I say.

Going to skip the gym at lunch and do yoga tonight. I need the stretching.

I hope the numbers go down on the scale tomorrow morning.

oh and

2009-03-24T22:27:00.001-07:00

i walked the dog for 30 minutes...:)

Another great cardio day

2009-03-24T15:05:00.001-07:00

20 minutes on the elyptical and 15 on the bike....sweat sweat sweat!!

Have I mentioned that I am THE shiznit? Am I obnoxiously perky yet? Huh huh huh?

lmao!

One more thing...

2009-03-24T09:15:00.001-07:00

7944 lbs.

That's how much weight I lifted yesterday..:)

Terrific Tuesday

2009-03-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

So I changed my weigh-in day to Fridays..and last Friday the scale said 218.5...for a total loss of ...DRUM ROLL PLEASE....FIVE POUNDS!!!!

So seeing that number on Friday made me determined to eat well over the weekend, which I succeeded at quite well. I am getting better at making heathy food choices and keeping my serving sizes appropriate.

Yesterday was a very large day for me. At lunch I did my chest and back workout, 15 minutes on the ski machine and then last night i did a yoga class and boy did I sweat! It was so awesome and I cant wait to get starting on the class that I signed up for that starts on the 2nd of April.

Last night when I was getting ready for bed, I was looking in the mirror and I actually liked my face...it was a strange feeling because usually I think bad things about myself when I look in the mirror. But I finally feel like I deserve all the good things I am doing for myself and I'm not feeling guilty anymore about spending some time on my own self-improvement. It sure helps that BikerGuy is backing me 100% in my endevours towards self-improvement and I have several friends who are also on the same road to health as I am. We are all at different stages but that's ok because I can see what I've come from and I can see what I am going. Life is grand..>:)

Oh ya...and on top of that, BikerGuy mentioned to me the other night that he has been thinking of us getting married and that if we can work out our few issues we have, then it's something he would like to work towards. It's funny because I did this "25 things about me" post for FB a few weeks ago and one of the things I said was "I'd love to marry my partner but I dont think it will even happen". I guess that got him thinking about things. Awesome. It would be kinda cool to get married in Amsterdam when we go there in November but I want my daughter to be there when (if) we ever get married. I guess we will just have to see how things go..:)

Wow this is the most I have written on here...EVER! I guess I tend to type alot when I am happy! TTFN!

5640

2009-03-17T10:17:00.000-07:00

that's how much weight I lifted last night..:) Of course not all at once...lol.

And I did some cardio too.

I ROCK!!!

Week 2

2009-03-16T15:49:00.000-07:00

STS for me....someone just educated me that means "Stay the same". That's ok. Maintaining is a good thing.

This week I am going to add in some weights and I also signed up for a yoga class but that doesnt start til April 2nd.

Onward and upward.

1 week in

2009-03-09T11:17:00.001-07:00

I lost a pound...better than going up right?

Last week was definitely a learning week for me. But I did get to the gym 4 times and several of those included both cardio and weights. I stuck to the WW plan mostly, but I think I'm not eating enough. Although the mind boggles at how someone can not overeat and still not lose more than 1 pound. Oh well. Not giving up. Just gotta tweak the food I guess.

I am also going to start taking some antioxidents in the form of Mona-Vie acai fruit juice. And if I am lucky, I can convince a few people of the benefits of this juice and drink my juice for free. I'll keep the blog informed of my progress with that. I want to try it first and see if it makes any difference in my health before I really start promoting it.

I also planned a new weight workout using the tools found on this site. http://www.exrx.net/Exercise.html. I'm excited to do the first workout tonight. I'm going to do cardio at lunch time and weights tonight. Wish my luck..:)

Here's what I did at the gym today!

2009-03-02T14:52:00.000-08:00

10 minutes on the treadmill - 3.3 speed - 1 min walking 1 min joggin

Back exercises: reps lbs sets
Seated pec dec - 15 20 3
Incline press 12 10 3
Seated pulley row 15 30 1
15 50 2
Biceps exercises:
Seated dumbell curls 15 8 3
Standing barbell curls 12 20 3
Biceps curls (smith) 12 10 3

And it only took 40 minutes!

Day 1 of Weight Watchers

2009-03-02T11:12:00.000-08:00

Wow...trying yet again to get healthier and slimmer. But this time I have the BEST support system and it's going to work. I am determined and all I have to do is not quit and beleive that progess will happen. Usually I get discouraged after a few days and that's because my goals are set to high and are just plain unachievable. My first goal is to lose 5% of my body weight. My current weight is 223.5lbs and 5% is 11.17lbs. That's a great goal..:) if I lose 2 pounds a week, that will take just under 6 weeks...I'll be happy with that I belive...:)

I went clothes shopping on Saturday with a good friend of mine, how is also being my support system. I had a GC for Reitman's for $175 from my hubby for xmas. And since I used it in Feb, I got an extra 10% and also they had a sale (buy one, get the 2nd at 50%) so I scored big time. I know these clothes will be too big for me soon enough, but I'm tired of being like a stuffed sauage in my jeans. And it's all good because I have someone who I can hand them down too, same friend who went shopping with me, so these clothes will get worn by others once they don't fit me anymore. Wow I can't wait for that day!

So here are my exercise goals:
weights - 3 times a week (M-W-F)
walk the dog - every day
Aquajogging - Wednesday eve

And here is extra when I can fit it in:
cardio at the gym (T-T)
Aquafit - Sunday Eve
one session of yoga a week minimum.

I think these goals are attainable...but I'm taking it one day at a time and I am going to be gentle on myself if I miss something....cuz I'm worth it!

Somedays I feel like this...but not today!

2009-02-27T13:33:00.000-08:00

2009-02-27T13:24:00.000-08:00

This is Sparky when he was a pup..he's about 8 months old now..:) I love him so much!

2009-02-27T13:19:00.000-08:00

This is Kitty...:)

2009-02-27T13:18:00.000-08:00

My cat Cali...she is 16 years old..:)

2009-02-27T13:17:00.001-08:00

the coolest kid in the world...:)

Blogging is fun...right?

2009-02-27T12:55:00.000-08:00

OK so I've been inspired by my friend to start a blog. Actually, she inspires me in a lot of way. She has inspired me to get back on the health bandwagon and get my ass back to the gym..so March 2nd is my start date. It's not like I don't know how to work out or eat healthy...it's just that I am lazy and I procrastinate etc etc etc. But not more! This is a new chapter for my life. A happier and healthier me..:) So Bring it!